PiNK

I love pink. For me pink is the color of happiness and glamour! My girl would love pink very much just like the mother. I can imagine all the pink baby stuff. I would want to wear my girl all in pink and snap a picture of her like a girl in a pink donut or Thumbelina...pinkkkkkkk!

The utmost strength...

I'm 7 months. In another two months I’ll becoming a mother to a baby girl unnamed. ;)

Of course! I already have a name in mind... In fact I'm calling her using the name already! I have the feeling that she likes it! She will be named”_ _ _ _ Aryan". Aryan is a historic word used in almost 5000 years back. In Arabic it means an utmost strength. In Hindu it refers to a race, a white skin ruling, during the Indus Civilization. I'm thinking of naming her Iris Aryan or Nurul Aryan or Irdina Aryan..... I do not know which one is the best! Pick me one please! I can't help it feeling so excited! It is just a great feeling to become a mommy! I'm so happy that finally I get to have my own real one you know?? Well I can't really express like this outside because I have to consider a lot of rules and superstitions...do not feel this...do not do that...plus, my sister is also wishing to have a baby. She just got miscarriage. I do not want to make her feel bad.

However, being pregnant making me wonder why god makes us so different in many many ways... I'm thinking sometimes why, there are people who are really happy for others and there are people who just can't be happy for his or herself and there are people who just don't feel happy to see someone happy... Just like how I really like babies...and I can see how badly my sister want a baby too... and I know someone who don't want a baby at all. She hates baby.

But whatever it is, I know there must be a perfect name for my lovely mini me. I hope she will have the strength like me. A quiet and soft one outside, but very strong inside.AHAKS!

The Origin of The Sins - LOVE

I have these strange feelings of how some people just love to love. And I wonder how some people just can't love.

"Love is just a word"- Mr. Stoned or maybe my father. “Birthday is just another day of life…”…my father

When we use the word love to describe something, or to express something or perhaps just making a remark, I wonder what are we really having at the back of our mind!! Are we really using the word by choosing the word as to when we say it and why we say it?? I love this! I love that! I LOVE you… My man always said he loves me every day, and I feel good about it. It is indeed a great endurance for me…But sometimes, I’m asking myself this happiness I have felt in me, is it because of the word he said or is it because I just want to hear the word? LOVE.

“Love is the first religion. Without it you can’t begin anything”- Mr. Moses.
I was only maybe 10 to 12 years old when I first learned these words from Mr. Moses. At that time the word seems zero to me. But after years of growing in LOVE, I remember these words by Mr. Moses clearly. The words kinda' fit my definition for Love somehow..

A pious one would describe that love is only for God. So is it sinful to love others, other than loving your God?

There’s a girl in my office that I considered very naive. She is younger than me. She's brought up in a very “proper” Muslim family. We all like her (so so) at the beginning… She shared with us that she never have boyfriend because the parents never allow her to have any relationship without their consent. Let us think why? Is it because the parents LOVE her too much?? So to make the story short, this innocent girl has fallen in LOVE… not with the parents of course, but guess what?!! She is in LOVE with my so called MR BALL HEAD BOSS!! (OF COZ A MARRIED MAN) At first, I couldn’t believe that this is really happening behind my eyes. But after a few witnessing of incidents, I guess they must have fallen for something that people usually refer to it as LOVE…. When I share this with my colleagues, they use one word to describe it, that “LOVE is blind…” NO!! I simply disagree with that. Love is not blind. It is the desire that is blind. When you cannot control your desires or your lust that is the origin of the sins. The worst part that I could not understand is, this MR BALL HEAD is not really with the character of a BOSS material…He is just not. He is the kind that uses material words to become a boss. This is another sin I’m talking about.

But guess what?? It all come down to one origin, that is Lust, Desires…Greediness and having too much LUV in this material world….

“There’s a danger in love with somebody to much…When you know it’s your heart you can’ trust…” – A song I can sing but I don’t remember the title.