Running through my veins...

Sometimes you just can’t stop thinking, how… why? when  was your life is just so much happier than before? Sometimes you just can't stop comparing how different would it be if things never change, if things would always stay the same. But what you see now is just memories lying in yourself… fooling your minds… the memories that is left behind… Sometimes you wonder how much you’ve think of the people you have met in the past… and think of all the good times you had spent together. Sometimes you wonder how much you’ve missed all of them. Sometimes you tell yourself, what you cherished is what you keep deep down in your heart… and you will never forget… The memories are just hunting you…

My Blue Handbag

Rebecca Minkoff: My Love at first sight 

I’ve always dream of having this baby blue handbag where I carry around putting all my stuff inside. But of course I’ll wear it with my faded blue jeans and baby-dolls. I've always go for the faded one. Vintage. I'm a vintage person in colour, trance in music. I listen to ‘Supermode’ when I work. I'd love to wear Sunnies walking by the street and check out the painting shops. That is who I really am regardless of what I’ve been facing inside and outside…regardless if I'm a working wall or a mother in the kitchen. I'm always the one with that baby blue bag (not blue but baby blue) and faded jeans. Who am I now? What am I inside? I just have a lot to think. Do I belong to the right place or maybe not at the right time? I wish I can paint a flower shops and hang them on my boutique and having coffee with all my customers talking not just about my products, but the philosophies’ behind my products. I wish. How I wish. 

Plenty of Pinks

I love pink. That shows how I always ended buying all the pink stuffs although I almost paid for other the colours sometimes. I couldn't resist pink. I might not wear them every day, but I just love to see them in abundance. Plenty of pinks made my day… :) If only the FB layout is in Pink? Because I hate the goddamn blue thingy around it!!! Owh please can't they just make it any more obvious?!! Well you know what I mean...

By the way, here are some of my stuffs that I just bought which are in Pink.

@ The Office

• A pair of Move sandals from Brand Outlets RM 70 for two which the other one was robbed I guess? That’s the shortest way to explain it.  
• A Za 2 way foundation case cost RM11.90.
• A IN 2 IT pink eye shadows cost RM 21.90.
• Pink make-up case made from cotton sealed with Plastic RM13. Maybe
• and a BPA free bottle from Tesco- RM 5. 

Well I guess that’s all for the pep talk. The next time we see I’m going to share with you how I love purple…

Smile and have a gud some!

-Ledlizbe

Pemberian Tahu - Chairil Anwar

Bukan maksudku mau berbagi nasib,

Nasib adalah kesunyian masing-masing.

Kupilih kau dari yang banyak,

Tapi sebentar kita sudah dalam sepi lagi terjaring.

Aku pernah ingin benar padamu,

Di malam raya, menjadi kanak-kanak kembali,

Kita berpeluk ciuman tidak jemu,

Rasa tak sanggup kau kulepaskan.

Jangan satukan hidupmu dengan hidupku,

Aku memang tidak bisa lama bersama

Ini juga kutulis di kapal, di laut tidak bernama!

Chairil Anwar

1946

Puisinya Tentang Seseorang...

Ku Iari ke hutan, kemudian teriak ku..

Ku Iari ke pantai, kemudian mennyanyi ku..

Sepi. .

Sepi dan sendiri, aku benci...

Aku mahu binqgar... aku mahu dipasar...

Bosan aku dengan penat....

Dan enyah saja kau pekat..

Seperti benjelaga jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya

Biar ramai, biar mengaduh sampai gaduh..

Aihh...

Ada malaikat menyulam jaring Iabah-Iabah belang

Di tembok keraton putih

Mengapa tak goyangkan saja locengnya

Biar terdera...

Atau aku harus Iari ke pantai

Belok ke hutan...

 

SAKIT SENGAL URAT

Mengapa perlu bangkitkan kisah2 yang lama? Ungkit mengungkit kesilapan yang lalu...belajarlah memberi peluang, membahagi sama-sama... sama kaya, sama rasa... kita ini orang merdeka... bangkitlah wahai semua... ah! sakit orang politik masih sama… - Madah after lunch ;>  

Awan yang terpilu...

This is the time when I feel really sad about myself and also my life. I keep on telling myself how special I am and why I have been chosen to face all these difficulties in my life. I get married and yet to find the most happiness part of my life. The only thing that I could figure out is the smiling face of my baby girl Aryan. I am somehow not in the favourite list of my family, friends and even my working life. Maybe is because of the personality that I have. I am a very plain person in nature. Well nothing much of my physical structure, my face and yet my so called wisdom. To be honest, I never really can compete with everything around me. At most of the times, I spend myself wondering how happy my sister is to have a very lovable husband, good money, good set of friends...I keep remembering how temper my husband can be....how difficult and serious is my mother...and how wild are my my friends... For god sake nothing jokes me!! Life is just like sad and boring cloud passing bye.. Sometimes, I feel like I just want to run and never stops running. Maybe what Forest Gump did was what he finds make him happy and content. Life is about running until you die. Because the road you've been passing is always full of enemies, jealousy, rude and bad mouthing where people keep bringing you down all the time. Sometimes I feel like zipping my mouth and never talk to anyone just write and listen to all my sad music collections. In the same time I feel like I'm running. Running with the two fingers on the keyboard. Or perhaps dancing in this very unwelcoming stage of life! But somehow there is no regret in my life. At least, that is how I must feel and keep telling myself everyday... so just pack my stuffs and move on. Move on and move along. Keep everything that I feel deep deep inside. And sometimes I feel jaded...